What would have been my life if it was the other way? The decision that changed my life. Sometime when I am all by myself,when loneliness creeps in ; my mind wonders what a different life it would have been had I chose the other option ? Instead of sitting glued to the computer screen scratching my head hard writing programs ,I would have been busy treating some patients. Yes what an entirely different live it would have been. Although these thoughts are least relevant at this point of time but they are the uninvited guests of my mind.
I chose to quit one of the prestigious courses for a reason that sounded stupid to many – homesickness and many other reasons which I can’t figure out right now. I don’t know …I always take impulsive decisions and stubbornly stick on to them(I know that it’s really stupid of me but I can’t help). My ability to adjust to changes was really poor at that time (I think I have improved a lot now). That’s how I chose to quit and opted for CS. I wonder what made me choose that. You see both the courses lie in different poles 😆
I don’t know whether I regret it or not… after all it was my decision and I have moved on in life ,at least that’s what I think. There are some who doesn’t want me to think so..They want to make to me feel that I am a loser, want me to regret …
Whenever I visit my mom’s house ,it s like a custom for some aunties in the neighborhood to pester me ,asking ” Aren’t you the one who was supposed to be a doctor?”,”What on the earth made you take that decision” . I just feel like shouting back “Thank you for reminding me or were you checking whether your memory is still fine , yes aunty it is in good condition“. My relatives are no different . Sometime they let out a deep sigh.. “See where destiny has taken her..you should have stuck to that course .”,”You would have been a doctor by now” . I don’t know what they want..Don’t they understand I have moved on in life ..loving my life the way it is. What’s the point in clinging to the past .I can’t go back and change my decision now..May be they are genuinely concerned about me..But they fail to understand that constantly reminding me of my past doesn’t bring back anything ..
I don’t know whether I regret but I agree that life would have been different 🙂
I can write pages about this topic but some how I prefer making my posts short.. I feel exhausted after writing a few paragraphs. I think this post has broken that record ..
This post is as a part of Daily Prompt: Regrets, I’ve Had a Few